Tuesday, August 19, 2008
Starting to get fun!
(pic. 1: Brayden talking to mommy)
(pic. 2: Brayden cracks a smile)
WHY didn't anyone tell me that the first 2 months are extremely difficult?! Not because I have a challenging baby, because I don't. He's actually quite perfect if you ask me ;-p. But because all the newness of being a fist-time mommy plus waking up every 2 1/2-3 hours can really do a number on your quality of sleep. Not to mention the mood you're in for most of the day because of it along with the unpredictable schedule infants have.
But just last week, Brayden started smiling at us!! And he's also started belting out a few shouts as to communicate with us!!! Which makes waking up at 4am a little more enjoyable. It's like he's now giving back to mommy who's taken such good care of him. Someone told me that having an infant's the closest you get to giving unconditional love. It never rang so true! It's because they can't say "Thank You Mommy" or give you a big hug for all that you do.
As of 4:19pm, he's now 2 months old. He's able to hold up his head for a long time and he also loves crawling up us when we have him on our chest. We're now experimenting by putting him in his crib istead of the pack n' play in our room. It's SOOOO tempting not to just keep him in bed with me. It would make things so much easier. One thing I don't know is when do they start developing a schedule? And when should I start establishing one?
I go back to work on Thursday but I won't be there for long. I've given them my notice. I'm officially retired at the ripe age of 31. At least with full-time work. I hope to continue freelance work and maybe get a part-time one day. The more Nathan and I thought about it all, we felt it was best for Brayden if I stayed home with him. Can we afford to do this? No. We're taking some loans out to support us for the next 2 years. Will it be worth it. YES! I can't imagine not being a part of or missing Brayden's developmental stages.
I in no way thing at-home-mothers have it easier. I think it's much harder to stay home. I know I'll look back and not regret it because you never get that time back. I just need to find creative and non-expensive ways to get out of the house with him. Get him involved with other kids and I can make new mommy friends.